If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to write it. So, good for me. You don’t know me very well but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing from the heart thing is for me. But this…this is the hardest thing I ever had to write.
There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it. I met someone. It was an accident. I wasn’t looking for it. It was a perfect storm—she said one thing, I said another. Next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation.
Now there’s this feeling in my gut: She might be the one. She’s completely nuts in a way that makes me smile. Highly neurotic. A great deal of maintenance required. She is YOU. That’s the good news.
The bad news is that I don’t know how to be with you right now. And that scares the shit out of me. Because if I’m not with you right now, I have this feeling we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big bad world full of twists and turns and people have a way of blinking, and missing the moment…the moment that could’ve changed everything.
I don’t know what’s going on with us and I can’t tell you why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me. But damn, you smell good, like home. That’s gotta count for something, right?
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